Sitting in the airport

I'm sitting in the Charlotte, NC airport because I missed my connecting flight. I've been flying since I was a kid and this is the first flight I've ever missed. It was another ADD thing. My cell phone didn't roll ahead as my old US Cellular did when I landed in a new time zone, so here I sit, waiting now another three hours for the next flight to Myrtle Beach.

It's not been a great day; too much time alone, I think. It's a two-hour drive from my home to the airport then the flight here and I'm worn out. Wouldn't it be great if they had a 5 p.m. meeting in every major airport in America? I'd like that. I could really use a meeting. Or I could just page a friend of Bill W., I guess.

My significant other and I were talking last night and he basically said that he doesn't think I've changed in the year we've been together. I think I have and I know he has, but if he doesn't see any change in me, then maybe that's not good.

I always felt like if a relationship was "meant to be," there wouldn't be a lot of emphasis on changing the other person; that there would be more flow and less conflict. Am I dreaming?

I've started reading Steven Covey's The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. I'm feeling pretty blue, though. Part of it is that my life's been up in the air for months, if not years, and I need to make some tough decisions about where I'm going to live to build my business. Naturally, that's hurting the relationship. I had told him a few weeks ago to "step up to the plate," but really, it's me that hasn't even donned the jersey. As they say, when you point a finger there's four pointing back at you.

Until tomorrow, I wish I had more motivational words to share, but some days are like this and you just keep trudging.